Puppy Pics

Labels: , , , - Wednesday, 9 May 2012



'You may think there are no such things as miracles, but there truly are, just, maybe not in the sense(s) that you were thinking'.


Exploring, and toppling a tiny bit, whilst mum was in the yard.

   
Hugging his mums back leg, the camera was zoomed and set for this photo.

Here's pup. 
I don't know the gender of 'him' yet, but somehow saying 'him' sounds a whole lot more personal than 'it'.. so if I refer to pup as a he, it's for 'just because' reasons. The vet didn't tell us his gender, he went to Mike at the car because pup was born on the back seat, and I think his main concern was that pup was OK, and when he was, that he and mum were taken home and got into the warm as soon as possible. 
 (He was also the emergency vet, so he was in for a short time for us).

 So I'll worry about the gender when he's a little older. :)

Well there he is, he is tiny, and he has a black strip across his eyes like a mask, and I really like the way those markings look, I'm looking forward to seeing him grow, and how those markings grow with him. He is also such a wriggly little fella, he is shuffling up her back and all round the bedding for more than I realized they do at this age, and I sit here watching Poppy moving him close to her, so he is just as he should be,(To keep him warm). So many times in a day, that I couldn't even count... 
but if it's the sign of things to be, I see us running round behind pup and toddler alike! 
Poppy, now. Poppy has also changed so much, she's less dominant, and so much more affectionate, it's as if we have a different dog here. I couldn't tell you how much being a mum has changed her and it's all for the better. And she is loving protecting and caring for him just the way that she should be, it only makes life hard getting Bruno in the yard because she treats him like a predator, but I guess that it's part of her job as a mum, and her job is to look after baby from anything. 

A trust like no other..


I went to stroke Poppy yesterday, and I noticed her move from pup, I gently stroked him with the back of my finger. I was really surprised that she allowed me to do that, (But I wouldn't do it in front of the children in case they tried and she did get protective). 
 I did stroke them both again at about 4 this morning, her first, and then him, only this this time I took my camera. And again, like before, she moved her front leg out of the way.
That is a special trust, a bond, and it really means a lot to me, to mean that much to her.

And  you know, it is amazing at the amount of changes that one little life can bring. 

Well, I had better get some cleaning done, and I also need to change the old towels with her and pup, as they do get messy very fast. 
Have a good day.

Take care 
Louise x








God, what a day. (Maybe a little graphic in parts).

Labels: , , , - Monday, 7 May 2012

About a week ago, we noticed Poppy felt swollen. 
I looked at her Sunday, and she seemed even more swollen, she looked swollen too, all of my instincts said it was pups, but she didn't actually look pregnant. And because of where her menstrual cycle was, we thought it was either a phantom pregnancy or something else.
 I said it was worth taking her to the vets to find out what was wrong, when it opened Tuesday, so at least we knew what was happening, (As it's bank holiday Monday).  And I also jokingly said I didn't want to find out it was pups by her going into labour tomorrow. How I could have ate those words. 


She went into labour in the early hours Monday. When she finally went into the stage of contractions, I checked her and she didn't seem to open.. having never had a litter of pups, a bitch in labour or anything else, I was truly clueless. 
When I next checked her, I saw feet. 
Ringing the vets, he gave advice to Mike on the phone, and I tried to deliver pup with lube, as advised. I picked her up, and put Poppy on my lap on her back. But I had noticed that the contractions stopped, and Poppy was exhausted. I was also making her sore trying to get the pup out.. which was upsetting both Poppy and me, and to top it off, pup wouldn't move much, when it seemed to be coming out, it went back in, Poppy seemed to get floppier, she even stopped panting, and I was becoming increasingly scared for both Poppy and pup. Mike spoke to the vet the whole time that I was trying to help her, he gave the vet the information, then we all decided it was best to get her up there, he gently bundled Poppy in the car and took her to the vet.


I was in floods of tears, PC in the front room, my facebook was open, my emotions, random, and raw, I posted a couple of lines on my page: 


'Please keep poppy in your thoughts and heart, only realized a couple of days ago she 'might' be pregnant, she went into labour today, and there are problems shes rushed to the vets.. i can't stop crying xx'

I rang Mike's phone for an update. And Mike told me that the vet had said that the puppy had died a while ago, and that it had taken him pretty much all the time that Mike was there to to take the puppy out. (About half an hour).
 Then I asked about any other pups, Mike said to me, that, that was it. That the puppy was half the size of Poppy, and that all the afterbirth and everything all came out with the puppy.
I felt so guilty. And heart wrenched, it was a nightmare.
 I asked if Poppy was Ok, and if he was bringing her home. He said that the vet had given Poppy a painkiller injection, that he was going to pay the vet, finish off there, and then he was going to pop her in the car. and bring her home with him. I was so heartbroken :( 
I'd been there with her from the first pant, tried to deliver pup and now it was gone, over, just like that. But Poppy was OK, and she would need us, I was also sat wondering how she was going to be.
On top of that, I also had to break the news to the kids. It was horrible.

Then. Mike was taking to long coming home. So I rang his phone. 

He said that as he was getting in the car, Poppy started making a lot of fuss over herself. He checked her, and there she was, with pup number 2. He said he turned round and rang the vets doorbell to get back in! I held my breath a little before I asked if pup was OK, He said the vet had checked it, and yes it was OK/alive, that the vet believed it was hidden under her ribs, which is why he didn't feel it when he checked her.
 Mike then added that he was already bringing them both home, that he was in the car and could see the house.. 
I broke down. I cannot tell you how I felt, but In one day, I think it's fair to say, that I've felt, and gone through every emotion known to mankind.

~ Poppy and puppy are now asleep in the front room. Bruno in the kitchen feeling sorry for himself lol. 
But she is making a wonderful first time mum, and we've decided that we will be keeping puppy too. 3 dogs lol.

I've also managed to eat in the first time in 24 hours, which has made me feel a lot better too, but apart from that even after a nap I'm shattered, it's 6 44AM Tuesday, I'm going to start getting the children motivated, and relax offline now.. and although I probably seem like the worst pet owner.. I just wanted to say that I do love all my family. 
Take care

~ Love Louise 

To add.. just for the FYI really: Sundays post was removed due to doubts I shared, as looking back, doesn't help moving forward.


(Our local vet said that he spays for 150£ where as the other vet said they charged 350£, but we moved and hadn't asked this one. He also said that if we wanted to do it, to give Poppy a couple of months with puppy to heal and everything, so yes after that time is up she will be booked to be spayed, so this will be first and only little litter, which I think is best for her and us, (Mike asked, as I'd asked him to).








Friday

- Thursday, 3 May 2012

I was sitting here worrying about posts I made on FB and if it was right or wrong, and what people would think, and then started deleting them.. when normally I'd just plunge in and apologize later if the need be lol... then it dawned on me, I slept for over 13 hours and forgot my anxiety meds.. At least it didn't get out of hand before I realized, as it's only a 'one way street downwards' without them.
(I'm such a bright spark).
Time to shut of facebook and let my meds kick in before everyone has lists of me posting and not a word to read, (Sorry btw lol)
Andrew is awake and on my lap after having his feet sniffed by 'Bruno doggy', he's pretty content, though Jay just let Bruno out in the yard, and fricking heck it's FREEZING lol... I'm, glad I'm staying in!
 I was also thinking and selling awareness candles xx just a thought on my earlier post, I'm going to give larger candles a practice and see how I go before committing myself, I'll post back later today xx
Love n stuff and take care xx

A gift

Labels: - Tuesday, 1 May 2012

A post I made as a reply has got me thinking...
I could sit and write an essay, in fact I deleted one before I decided this paragraph was enough lol.


' I've seen life end before it has begun. Life is a gift. And a gift like any other gift it isn't a promise, tomorrow isn't a promise. It's precious.  Use your gifts. Don't let them waist. '


Now I'm not sure what I'm going to do here lol but my brain is in over-drive mode. 


Love, and take care as always.
Louise xxx



Happy May

- Monday, 30 April 2012

It's the first of May, 4 17am. Not kind of sure where the heck that came from, it seems some force just wants to age me another year! (Andrew is also one next month, odd to say I started this journal whilst I was pregnant with him, as a place to relieve all feelings high and low). So yep, all at once lol.
Well. Andrew's been asleep for around half an hour, after giving him calpol I gave up and cuddled him to get him to settle, and then popped a sleepy boy back in his cot. So it's early, as per, and I'm tired but not sleepy-tired, so I may as well get the kids stuff sorted for tomorrow... and then. We'll see. 
 Sarah told me that my mums now lying for Kate, she'd been talking to Sarah over her 360.. and she turned to me and said, 'It's bullshit mum'.  I agreed. Now if there was an emotion or smiley that had a little face throwing junk up, saying 'Fuck it', that would be me today, And I also posted the 'people are so full of shit, it comes out of both ends', comment too, it filled the 'mood of the moment', if you want to put it that way.. And I still don't feel a lot different. 
Well. Good news cars now road worthy for another year.. I'd be lost without it.
Time to do some odds and ends so there's no messing about in the morning.. it makes life so much easier.
Happy May... I think, lol.
Louise xx

A friend for life

- Saturday, 28 April 2012

You sit there silently listening to everything, and it doesn't matter what I say you never judge, and your opinion of me stays the same.
You're one I don't mind being there, even if I want to be alone.
I can cry and hold you, and you love me back.
If I'm tired you'll lay with me,  and if I want to play, even for a short time, you're the first for it!
You don't mind me calling you 'A ginger whinger', playfully when you moan! In fact, your happy to see me happy.. I'm sure sometimes you do it on purpose just to get me to tease!
You know I'll spoil you too, and you don't tell! (Even if there are signs that give it away)!
You love Birthdays and Christmas, and will run off with the paper, shredding it to bits as you go, leaving me to clean it, but I don't mind, not really. Your innocent face lets gets you away with soooo much.
You ask for so little, and give so much...
Do you know that?


You are more than a dog, you are my loyal friend.
I am yours, for as long as you are mine, no matter what. (And that's my promise to you).
Big soft and gentle. Anyone who says different about you.. or your breed, has never had a day with you, or seen your breed for the right reason. 
I would even trust you with my baby. That is some trust. (Though not alone as you're playful at times, and I wouldn't want accidents).




Bruno. A friend for life.



See my innocent face?? 

MOT, exhaustion and what not's

Labels: , - Friday, 27 April 2012

It's 3:30am Saturday, yesterday, I slept from 10am ish until 5pm and then from 9pm - 2am ish today. The spasms really ground me down, it's not the longest I've slept for, but it certainly cost me the day. All I can say is I'm grateful that Mike was here, and although I know he doesn't fully understand, I know he does understand. 
I just wish there was a way to stay awake sometimes. But it's not the way it is, my body is like a battery that doesn't charge fully, and doesn't take a lot to go flat, and the only way I can charge it somewhat is to sleep. 
Well the car failed it's MOT, it's going to cost about 100£ to fix it, it's what I'd class as an unexpected expense, but money was put aside before it came up, and Mike has an appointment for 8:30 am today to get it repaired, the only downfall to that is, is that he's sick. He started being ill last night, so fingers crossed he'll be OK to get it done. On that note, I'm going to shut down the PC and relax a little bit, because I'm going to be needed later.
Take care x 

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